My Everchanging Life of Experiences...

I am easy influenced by the right influence and I believe that I influence others in hopefully the right manner(s). I have been an avid TOOL/APC fan for some time but in the past few years I have learned more about the band, members and lyrics. It's helped me through my best times and worse times. Not only the lyrics but the instrumentals, the way the music passes in and out of my body conscious and unconscious. I feel the music like no other and understand certain segments to a tee. I even meditate to the music from time to time because it puts me in a mental and emotional state that is level or at peace with my surroundings. But what I was able to experience this past weekend is something beyond any other.
I went down to St. Louis with some friends for a TOOL show and went in there with very little expectations and an open mind on how things would be. When we got in I stayed calm and intoxicated very little in order to keep an clear mind. The show kicked off with an MJK speech and then into the song, "Third Eye," which is in reference ti Hindu/Buddha about a higher level on consciousness. I let the entire show soak in in so many ways that I was so taken that I was rendered speechless. At one point in the concert during the song, "46 and 2," which is my favorite TOOL song, I began to tear up and got very emotional. It was a quick couple seconds where I allowed myself to be so open and vulnerable, something I rarely do. But it as worth it because it made me feel real, feel human. In the song, "Lateralus," Danny Carey hits a gong which is one of my favorite instrumental moments in music history. They played that song and he hit that gong. As God is my witness when he hit that gong that building shook like an volcano erupting. I knew it was coming, I was singing along with all the other TOOLheads and when that gong hit my body, my mind, my soul, my shadow were completely fucking rocked more than any single music/art experience of my life. I was taken. I was alive. I am humbled.