By Trevor A. Keveloh
I've been doing a lot of "soul searching" and realizing who I am as a person, friend, ex, son, brother but most importantly, human. Something I've discovered that is strikingly intricate to making amends with people is a combination of purpose and outcome.If you are making amends with someone, or even, something, and your purpose is to, in a sense "clean your karma/soul up," then I believe it will be helpful in your journey through life. If your intentions of cleaning up your shit are in anyway malicious or intent for pursuing something unethical, beware that some shit might come back at you and take a dump on your chest-life. I have personally made amends with a number of people in the past 6 months that meant a lot to me over my X amount of years on this beautiful planet known as Earth. Almost all of those people have reciprocated positively and I truly feel that I am cleaning up most of my unwanted bad juju from my past. Granted there is plenty more some of you readers may be thinking about, but the fact of the matter is this. No one, no one at all lead me to this epiphany/revelation. This was something I figured out on my own, alone, while studying myself from my past, present and moving forward. I kind of just felt vibes and picked up on whatever it was telling me to go forward with an open heart and forgive what has been done, but especially, own up to what I have done.
And I did.
The outcome of making amends can stem from simply purging your shit, getting the corn off your chest or on the more serious side, trying to re-establish a relationship with that person or thing you once broke from. Some readers may be questioning some of my amends, your own, or not knowing what in the FAWK I am talking about. If you are picking up what I am dropping, continue to read this. If you haven't a clue, ask me or someone or just read this because you are this far and who quits this far, seriously, don't quit on me now ese! Anyways, If you are simply looking for some sort of closure from making amends, don't expect that person to give that to you. Sometimes the closure you seek, you've always had, you just needed to get some corn off your chest and communicate it to someone. Not everyone is strong enough, smart enough or ready for accepting that kind of communication from someone or something whom they've had some shit with. And at other times, more deep shit, maybe that amends you are making is the Gods of life telling you that person who are connecting too, need it as well. Maybe they aren't strong enough to call, text, email, myspace message you and express themselves. So the good lord or Allah or Buddha or L.Ron find their way of connecting you to them. You have a dream, vision, come to Jesus moment and you "reach out" (I hate that term but it's become more understandable because of the human element behind it) to that person. Some may think you are trying to get into their pants, some may think you are just bored, some may actually understand the way the world works with energy and shit. But either way, it's up to you to communicate your shit to them, give them the best understandings of your part and move onward, peacefully, with love in your heart. Because when that shit starts to happen, when you open up that wound that you carry around like a mini-martyr birthday cake and you let it go, you feel something special come over you. Something you can't quite describe, but something you feel and internalize. And it's for you, it's a gift from whatever you believe in, for you and only you. And it's wonderful...
Spread the love. Ask someone out for lunch. Reach out and touch someone. Give em a (mouth) hug.
